Slowly, even before you said "I don't know what I want." Faster, when you said you did know, and it wasn't with me. A bit haphazardly when you returned with need for closure, yet with a need for continued friendship. And now all at once.
Because actions speak louder than words -- and words left unanswered say more than any words could attempt to convey.
You said you wanted a friendship. What you really wanted was a second chance on reserve. And that's the opposite of closure.